A night walk ....... (written long back ...... :) )

Had a rough day, felt like worlds against you, you are angry with self, ahaa that makes a perfect reason for a night walk. My mom slept by around 11:30 pm, early by her standards (hehe). I was not exactly in best of my moods, saw hangover on my PC; movie was awesome, except that I dint get a chance to see the last part, one in which they get the revelation on what they clicked all nightJ. Pirated movies suck that ways. Anyways, by now I felt I had all the symptoms of “oh hell you gotta go for a night walk”, hangover only added to the prerequisites. J

So I asked my mom, (who was in her sleep) that am going down for a walk, before mom could respond anything J I started locking the house, and off I went for a good night walk, loaded with a digital cam and my mobile phone J.

Time: 12:30pm, getting down was exciting, then came on to the road, damn people were still seen, and vehicles were still running, though shops were closed. I am not exactly unfamiliar with this environment, considering that I have been at office this late on many occasions. L. In the whole excitement, I sighted a autowala fighting a guy, damn it at 12:30 people still have in them to get into a quarrel. It was as usual “chutta” problemJ.

Anyways I was not at all interested in their problem. I moved a bit forward, found a beggar sleeping on the footpath. He had 2-3 bags with him, he cuddled them all, felt like he is missing some one, and hugging those bags for comfort. Well I was going through the same kinda feeling only that I preferred to walkJ.

I reached the park near the highway and chose to stay put there for some time. The ground there was completely empty J wonder whyJ. I went to the center the wind was very cold, felt like some cold running around you, felt good for few moments J then suddenly I felt something is happening around me, no more I was feeling the cold (hehe). I made a brisk move to the end where I could see some one sitting, a old man, gave a smile to him and then went out of the ground and moved ahead. Suddenly I realized that there was a crematory on the way J I thought it was intellectual to turn back J some how I am happy I made that decisionJ.

By now I was not feeling that afraid, I again went to the ground to the center of it J and clicked pics all around, nothing good to click though, except you gotta lay down on the ground and gaze the sky, its an awesome feeling. I would rather sleep there seeing pointlessly in the sky, then I chose to sit on the side railing, and clicked few pics on self. I appreciate myself as a model and photographerJ.

I had set an alarm of 30 minutes on my cell, just to confirm that I don’t sleep off on the ground. J. After gazing in the sky, I left the park. I came across the beggar again, but now it felt that the beggar was not cuddling his belongings he was actually holding them together, so that the dogs around, or notorious guys around don’t steal it. It was kinda sad to see that, even beggars have things to worry on. Heard about the short story we had in our schools? Who is the happiest man in the world; well that story named the beggar as truly happy, ahm seems unreal now.

Well then just thought would go back to my warm homeJ, and did just that. It was a good feeling after all, I think it’s not all that bad an idea to go out on a walk at night, hmm considering I cannot get up early for thatJ. Hope I go for more such rounds at night, alone. It’s a feeling you do not wanna miss.

I have tried to cut down on details of the feeling you get on being alone. Mind you it’s not always good, but just the feeling that you have to get in when on a night walkJ. I thank all those who have been there for me, cared for me, and not letting me alone. All and all I guess I got a solution on what you do when you are sad, just get the heck outta your self, go out, go all out.

Things go wrong ...... and they should ......

It was late night, if you consider 11:30 pm late, to be coming home from office work. I was quite depressed by the fact that i couldn't complete my assigned work, but had an excuse for that. I was not in so good mood, and that's when you expect your friends to step-in. I tried calling some special friends, unfortunately they were unreachable for sometime. That was a time when i felt i am running out of "my mood is not good, please help" friends. I called up my college sister :), she is really cute but somehow i could say, not tailor made for such situations :D. Amazingly she expected my call. I suppose i did engage her for a good 15-20 mins, speaking about the previous day, it felt good, coz the prior day was quite good being a sunday i.e. Anyways after i put down the phone still the bus didn't turn up, NMMT 100 i.e., then i decided got an airoli bus, on the way got a call back, i felt so happy on receiving that one. But the tone sounded so not reliving, it was on to another fight. Some misunderstandings cropped up and that was it, to add to my miseries the call ended in even more sad note. I was feeling so out of myself. I dint know what to do, i got down near airoli circle, and kept on walking ahead, don't know what was in my mind, i was just walking along with no feeling at all, until it struck to me that i had almost to the airoli toll-naka. Its pretty awful to understand that you have walked that much when you actually don't realize that until your legs start paining :P